Getting Psyched

Well, it has come to this.  Two babies, 35 pounds heavier than I want to be, working part-time, too tired on my "down" time to exercise, wanting to eat any and all breads, chocolate, pasta, cereal, etc. that I can get my hands on...I have tried Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, Weight Watchers Online, Visalis and just good ol' dieting.  Alas, I just cannot stick to a "diet" and cannot lose this weight.  In fact, I keep adding more pounds to the amount I need to lose!  So...after my sister has had such great success on the Dr. B diet (she has lost 50 pounds!!), I am going to sign up as well! 

Am I nervous?  Yep!  Do I want to lose the weight?  Yep!  Am I afraid of failure...again?  Yep!

So, I am psyching myself up to start on the Dr. B diet.  I am going to start on October 16 - a Tuesday.  I wanted to start on a Monday, but they only do consultations on Tuesdays & Fridays.  I wanted to be able to weight in on the weekend, but they only work Monday - Friday, 6:00 am - 2:00pm.   

My sister told me to start the diet after any social engagements, as its really hard to put yourself into a social setting in the first 2 weeks.  She said I'll be on sugar withdrawal - probably grumpy, headachy, just yucky feeling.  Sugar detox.

I am eating foods that I love for the next week or so, knowing that I won't get to eat them again for a long time.  Probably adding another 5 or more pounds to the total I need to lose by the end of my "binge". 

However, I have so much to look forward to, and I want to feel good, sexy, pretty, healthy, energetic for it all.  Going on a family vacation on November 9 to Arizona for 10 days - right in the middle of my Dr. B experience.  Then a family disney cruise in March - which also happens to fall on my 40 birthday!  We are going with another family, and I don't want to spend the 7 days of the cruise, wishing I could hide the fact that I am fat.  Wishing that I had tried just a little harder to lose some weight.  I want to feel okay, lying by the pool in my bathing suit, not embarrassed, shy.  Then in May, 3 of my girlfriends and I are off to Vegas to celebrate our 40th birthdays. 

I am hoping to be a Yummy Mommy by the end of this - full of confidence, feeling my old self again, hopefully changing my eating habits, and back into my old clothes, and hopefully some new ones!

I'm not sure if anybody will read this blog.  I am writing it in case anybody else is in my situation...wanting to lose the weight, wondering if this Dr. B diet is worth the money.  I hear all the commercials, sounds amazing.  It is very expensive, but will it work this time?  If anybody is reading this and want to comment - please remember the old saying "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything."  I would love feedback, but remember, I am just a person, but one with feelings, so be kind.....